I saw this interview on Trey Songz’s blog months back but lost the link. I refound it! It is of one of most insightful, truthful and at peace interviews I have ever read. Granted it will take about an hour to read the entire piece but if you have the time and/or love the realness that was the late Tupac Shakur you will not be disappointed in taking the time out to read it. Here is an excerpt, if you decide to continue the link is at the end of this post.

How do you feel after everything you’ve been through these past few weeks?

Well, the first two days in prison, I had to go through what life is like when you’ve been smoking weed for as long as I have and then you stop. Emotionally, it was like I didn’t know myself. I was sitting in a room, like there was two people in the room, evil and good. That was the hardest part. After that, the weed was out of me. Then every day I started doing, like, a thousand push-ups for myself. I was reading whole books in one day, and writing, and that was putting me in a peace of mind. Then I started seeing my situation and what got me here. Even though I’m innocent of the charge they gave me, I’m not innocent in terms of the way I was acting.

Could you tell me specifically what you mean?

I’m just as guilty for not doing nothing as I am for doing things. Not with this case, but just in my life. I had a job to do and I never showed up. I was so scared of this responsibility that I was running away from it. But I see now that whether I show up for work or not, the evil forces are going to be at me. They’re going to come 100 percent, so if I don’t be 100 percent pure-hearted, I’m going to lose. And that’s why I’m losing.

When I got in here, all the prisoners was, like, “F-ck that gangsta rapper.” I’m not a gangsta rapper. I rap about things that happen to me. I got shot five times, you know what I’m saying? People was trying to kill me. It was really real like that. I don’t see myself being special; I just see myself having more responsibilities than the next man. People look to me to do things for them, to have answers. I wasn’t having them because my brain was half dead from smoking so much weed. I’d be in my hotel room, smoking too much, drinking, going to clubs, just being numb. That was being in jail to me. I wasn’t happy at all on the streets. Nobody could say they saw me happy.

When I spoke to you a year ago, you said that if you ended up in jail, your spirit would die. You sound like you’re saying the opposite now.

That was the addict speaking. The addict knew if I went to jail, then it couldn’t live. The addict in Tupac is dead. The excuse maker in Tupac is dead. The vengeful Tupac is dead. The Tupac that would stand by and let dishonorable things happen is dead. God let me live for me to do something extremely extraordinary, and that’s what I have to do. Even if they give me the maximum sentence, that’s still my job.

Can you take us back to that night at Quad Recording Studios in Times Square?

The night of the shooting? Sure. Ron G. is a DJ out here in New York. He’s, like, “Pac, I want you to come to my house and lay this rap down for my tapes.” I said, “All right, I’ll come for free.” So I went to his house-me, Stretch, and a couple other homeboys. After I laid the song, I got a page from this guy Booker, telling me he wanted me to rap on Little Shawn’s record. Now, this guy I was going to charge, because I could see that they was just using me, so I said, “All right, you give me seven G’s and I’ll do the song.” He said, “I’ve got the money. Come.” I stopped off to get some weed, and he paged me again. “Where you at? Why you ain’t coming?” I’m, like, “I’m coming, man, hold on.

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Okay, I know yesterday was the Superbowl. Amped the Saints won, they deserved that 200%!! Manning, smh.

A usual highlight are the Superbowl ads, but this year. I was not amazed. Granted, I was watching the game via satellite because I am in London and was up until 3am but those commercials, IDK! After that Doritos one aired which I missed I later scrambled to find it, only to realize… I HAD ALREADY SEEN IT BEFORE!!! Not sure if it was aired in the UK before the company wanted it aired in the Superbowl but that was not even fair. They are supposed to be airing new stuff not old news! Anyways, if you missed the game here are the highlights. The pile up at 3:35 was totally uncalled for, Saints had it and at 4:45 witness greatness.

Here is the opening for one of the best games I have seen played so far with Jay-Z and Rihanna on Run This Town alongside Es Posthumus. Much better than The Who’s halftime show. By the way, did they dress themselves?

Because my portfolio is no longer on this website, well “officially”, (if you have the permalink to it still works) I am cutting off all comments to change the style of the blog as of this entry. It’s not final decision but I want to see where it goes. Thanks.

P.S. I am trying to figure out what happened to my archives? They don’t show up as well as older entries. Gross WordPress.

Let me address this first because I have been getting backtracked emails about my website. So I did not forget to renew my website, this is not shutting down and I do not have “beef” with my host haha. One person seriously asked if that was why my website was not working. Made me laugh pretty hard. I love my host, it is just that I am switching servers to my own private one (which I haven’t done just yet) and my host took a bit to renew the domain name for me.

Next on the agenda is…. what happened to updating this thing? hahaha That is my fault. College transfers are wrapped up but my portfolio website and hosting site are not up yet. Besides that, I have a plate full of projects to take care of and those come first since I am getting paid for them. Fashion school is expensive and I have got to pay for the cloth, pins, needles, swatches, embelishments and miscellaneous art supplies! In the end it is worth it because it will result in a fashion career eventually. Graphic designing has become a source of income for me now so I am not going to say no to a potential client. So that is what is up with thatttt.

One last thing. SOCIAL NETWORKS. NO, I do not have a Twitter. I have gotten emails about that. Reason being because I like having my life being private and will only share so much with the rest of the world. Nor do I have a MySpace though my portfolio contains a large portion of work done on there. I just know how to work with their CSS/HTML and do not have a personal account. Personal choice of mine soo yeah. I do have a Facebook but unless you want to run a search on my name, I am not going to be giving it out just yet.

I leave you with something a bit more light-hearted. Lyrics should give you a laugh if you haven’t heard the song before.

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